Embrasing the Sarcasm

I almost wish I could change the title...ALMOST.  I have just been reflecting on me, like always.  I am egocentric to the point of narcissism.  It is a sin.  I know.  I am working on it.  And maybe it is not something you blog so the whole world can see.  But here is the thing.  I don't know who I am suppose to be.  Yes, I am in Christ.  Yes, I am called to love others.  Yes, I am a mother.  Yes, I am a Christian.  Yes, I am a wife.  Those are all so general that my puny little brain can not wrap itself around these too big, too general titles.  I THINK I know what I want to be, but for too many reasons that are ultimately not so important makes what I would truly desire not come to pass.  Then I hear the voices in my head... "You can do whatever your heart desires.  Reach for your dreams.  You can do the impossible."  All of that in some weird voice from a TV commercial advertising, oh I don't know, let's say the Olympics.  Any way, on top of that I don't even think thinking that way of thinking is Christian or Biblical so I DO know that much. 

So here is what I am trying to get at.  Delicate crafting, home decor, fashion, and even spreading inspirational words from God all those things that I have been trying to be or want to be- out the window.  I haven't even learned the art of socializing or empathy.  Not to say that I couldn't learn those things or that God couldn't help me in this area, but I need to find what works for me at this season of life.  Where am I gifted?  What can I do that is just sort of mine? But one thing I do have- sarcasm.  At least I think I do.  I am going to use it.  I need it to laugh because it is free.  I LOVE free. 

I just discovered 3 Things for Mom.  It is NOT an exclusively Christian mom centered blog, but it does have a great format- truth, tip, and find.  I have followed it from day one (it is pretty much brand new) and can see these women are put together, smart, have the means to be attractive, and are gifted in so many areas that I just wish I had one of those gifts.  But I have been given the gift of sarcasm and the challenge of the American form of poverty.  I don't have a smart phone, flat screen, or cable, my computer is well over 4 years old, my car is 20 years old- I could go on and on.  I am not complaining.  I am just pointing this out so you know where I am coming from.  If you are saying to yourself- "Well you could change all that if you REALLY wanted to."  Maybe I do, that is your opinion, or maybe this is an assignment from God.  I don't know.  I just have to get this out.  So I will be copying the format from 3 Things but in MY voice and reflection.  Yes, I am copying.  It is what I do because I am not original.  Here we go-next time, cause the baby just crawled on my lap.