I bet you thought I forgot about you and the Happiness Challenge. I did not. You are always in the back of my mind! But now I bring you to the front. I have been toying with thoughts of getting a job because my main obstacle is financial. They are just thoughts that don't turn into action. I don't know. I can barely handle someone coming over for dinner- I don't think I can handle a new job without a ton of support.
Any way, I FINALLY did number 26- send someone you miss a postcard. I sent it to my roommate from college. I have been putting this one off for ages now because of so many excuses- it is almost unbelievable.
I miss her so much it hurts. I would get a job if I thought I could save enough money to go visit her. But then I would be filled with guilt for not visiting my parents. But then I would argue with myself that this is my life. I can decide who I want to visit. And then I would argue with myself that technically my life belongs to God and I can't do whatever I want. But then I wouldn't go any where because God doesn't actually tell me where to go. And this cycle of madness continues.
Do you ever feel like this or am I the only one?
Yours Truly,
L.L.
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