This week included Memorial Day, but we didn't plan anything special. I was able to get a big book read though and spend the rest of the week trying to get my mind ready for this month. I won't be able to write much- most likely. I won't get many challenges done. We are going to Great Wolf Lodge next week and then spending the week after that getting ready for the mission trip to John Day during June 18-24 and then spending an extra 3 or 4 days with my parents. June is pretty booked. Selfish me doesn't REALLY want to go (except to visit my parents) so I need to be praying for my attitude and heart and mind change. Family me wants to be a good sport.
On the other hand one of the randomest (my own word) reasons I don't know about these trips is always financial. I have stretched out bras, lots of holes in all my pants, and have gained so much weight from not running that I am just a complete mess. I bounce back and forth every day between being confident with who I am and quit wearing a bra altogether and then withering into self loathing for letting myself get so fat and feeling like no one loves me- all day, every day, every minute- I change how I feel about myself. I don't know how we are going to afford new clothes especially decent bras are $50 a pop. I tried finding cheaper ones they all felt like I was being strangled. What is wrong with my boobs? Is that TMI? I don't want to go bra shopping! It is just too depressing to think about.
But in better news I did get two challenges done this week- "Surprise someone you love with a gift". Look!!! Aren't these great!!!
I decided on a gift for both of us. I just wanted to something in our room that would make me smile and something we both enjoy- Star Wars! Maybe it will inspire my husband to FINALLY make the bed? One can wish for the impossible.
Friday is usually the day I write to you but tomorrow we are going to see the new Wonder Woman movie which also collided with the "nail art" challenge. I changed it a little so I could use Jamberry wraps and help out my wonderful consultant.
So things are slowly looking up though I am not looking forward to writing the annual report for church tomorrow but thankfully we are doing that at a coffee shop so I will happy with a latte or a fresh kombucha for this unpleasant work.
Do you like to do your nails? Normal mine would be a little longer at least but they kept breaking off and well one thing led to another and it feels so good to cut them really short after they get so much gunk in them after working in the garden or doing dishes- I should use more gloves but I like a more hands on approach and I hated the clicking sound it was making when I was typing.
Wish me luck- pray for my attitude- and the miracle of either weight loss, confidence, or a magical breast reduction.
Yours Truly,
L.L.
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