Getting Crafty with It

Dearest Friend,

It has been awhile!  I haven't found a writing groove or schedule- obviously.  Obviously I didn't go more than a couple of days into Lent before giving up, flaking out, and getting a little more depressed.  I didn't know how to write again when I had failed so miserably.  But it is okay- I am slowly coming back up out of my foggy sad self.  I am one big continuous roller coaster though.  One moment I am high thinking I have finally cracked the question of "How do I schedule my time?" and then I hit the low "How will I do all these things?  What do I even do?  I don't have enough money to do anything!  Why are my kids always fighting and/or angry?"  Well- just because I can I am going to type here my sort of plan of the 5 things (excluding eating and sleeping) of things I believe I can and possibly should try to do every day:

1. Chores/TO DO List/Church Ministry Prep
2. Exercise (MWF work toward the Couch to 5k plan & TR are for Yoga/Pilates)
3. Hobby- this will be monetarily dependent but I would like to focus on cross stitching and gardening
4. Reading/Writing
5. Something Special following this pattern:
          -A Book that Takes Its Time
          -Bucketlist Happiness Challenge
          -Calendar of Activities as a guide from The Confident Mom
          -Christian Calendar (make my own spin on Catholic traditions and create a more modern inclusive to more denominations type calendar using these as a guide)
          -Clothes: I have come to the conclusion that I should try a little harder to make it a priority to shop with my girls at some thrift stores or just to admit defeat that I need to include more clothes shopping in my life.  New clothes that actually fit make me feel better about myself and I found a great guide on Fighting Frump.  It seems like this is also a loosing battle with me.  I feel super fat most of the time and I don't know what to do with my boobs.  They seem huge and all the bras hurt, itch, and just plan don't seem to work.  I keep thinking I will loose weight.  I will get healthy.  But at this point in my life this is super wishful thinking.
           -Days of the Year: find something easy and cheap to celebrate ONE thing instead of trying to do it all.
          -Unwind Every Day: if all else fails just pick ONE thing (easy, cheap/free) that is calming and possibly out of the house

I wanted to give myself variety and not try to DO everything, which I think that was what I was trying to do before.  I need to take things slow and easy.  I need to do things mindfully and thoughtfully.  I don't know what is going on in my brain sometimes when I think I can do and afford all these "things".  I know I want to do things and get some things done but finding my priorities is not my strong suit.  Well...here I go taking another stab at life.

I did get a little crafty this week.  I started my Day 39 "Complete a paint by number" to add to my Hedgehog collection.

So far it looks like this....

But will hopefully look a little something like this...

I started another cross stitch but it only looks like this.  You will have to use your imagination as to what it will look like when I am done.

Thank you for taking this journey with me.  I get so distracted by the "world and its pleasures" that I have to remind myself I am a simple minded person and I have a simple great life.  I need to embrace it and love what I CAN do rather then what I think I SHOULD be doing or trying to keep up with what EVERYONE else is doing.  

(trying to be) Faithfully Yours,

Larissa