Real bacon, bean sprouts, onions, hard boiled eggs, sweet pepper rings, grape tomatoes, sunflower seeds, almonds, walnuts, and corn bread for the kids! I could have added at least 4 more things but I was running out of space on my little kitchen table. I made a brown sugar salad dressing: 1/2 cup brown sugar, 1/2 cup oil, 1/3 cup ketchup, 1 TB of Worcestershire sauce, and 1/4 cup of white vinegar. It turned out absolutely delicious and a wonderful summer tradition.
Also yesterday I said I wasn't have a great summer and I just want to clarify because there is absolutely no reason to feel sorry for me. There was just a lot of stuff I didn't see coming and NONE of it is bad it just threw off my schedules for everything and especially blogging. Here are a few of the things I am talking about just to give you some context: My husband has been home (A LOT) more than I anticipated so finding the balance between doing chores or feeling like he was in the way was rough for me. He wanted to start the South Beach diet and start working out- AWESOME but also now I am cooking a lot more and making more messes. I have not finished reading ONE book this summer. It breaks my spirit when I don't even have time to read! My kids have taken ZERO initiative or responsibility even though I have made snazzy summer binders with lists, ideas, and planners. Part of that problem is because my husband likes to decide things spur of the moment and I am more of a planner so the children are jerked around a lot. It kinda breaks down to personality and communication clashes. Things have finally slowed down a little and I have been able to take a step back. I will not let fear rule our marriage. I have not been able to voice my opinion without feeling like the one with the flaws. We are different. We need to talk things out. It seems so obvious but for me so terrifying. If you were at all wondering why I wasn't putting up my regular Friday post it was because of all the schedule changes and having to processes my new responsibilities.
There you have it. Basically everything I thought the summer would be- relaxed, some structure for chores but not overwhelming, fun activities that I planned, and kids who took some initiative became yanked out from under me and became- would you please make breakfast and lunch for me every day (again I love to do but had not needed to do in the last 8 years or so), make sure x,y, z gets done we are going here (some event or location) btw and I didn't tell you about, and I have a project I need to work on with you (interrupting something with the children). Prayer for more flexibility, patience, and selflessness would be appreciated. Thank you! I pray that summer can still be great but accepting that change joyfully is still a challenge. Thank you, husband, for making the coffee this morning!
