Wishes....

Dearest Reader,

I wish there was more physical evidence of how hard I feel I worked to keep everyone from killing each other, but other than that I am fine and nothing much happened this week that I wish to share in great detail.

Saturday was just me bearing my frustrations to a friend while making 50+ mini churros for the Mexican feed for Sunday.  I took a break from Facebook and actually feel more stable about myself in general which was the least of what I was hoping for- better than nothing.

The rest of the week I focused on my reading and kitchen cleaning and cooking- normal, average every day life.  I do have two highlights- I listened to a Fountains of Carrots podcast while cross stitching which always lifts my spirits and I received a box from my mom filled with a few souvenirs and programs from my Grandmere's memorial service.  When I read what my mom wrote for the service I very much balled my eyes out.  It also gave me a lot to think about.  

Honestly don't know what next week holds all I know is that I do not wish to commit to anything at this time. 

Yours truly,

L.L.

Confession

My Dearest Reader,

I am sorry for my tardiness with this post.  I have had a week of absolute wretched annoyance.  My wish is to be discreet yet honest which will be very difficult to do.  It is a shame that all of this culminated after a truly pleasant Mother's Day.

There have been severe misunderstandings and miscommunications between my husband and I.  It has made me feel frustrated beyond belief.  I am, by no means, a controlling and nagging wife so this makes it all the more difficult to comprehend why he has become unbearable to approach with subjects that are not even very important let alone the ones that are.  It has nearly warranted me to seek a mediator or counselor. 

Without going into excessive detail let me just say, yesterday, he did offer to take the children shopping (for which I was grateful) so I could accomplish the task we have been arguing over.  I wish they had been gone for longer then an hour and a half for I did something quite shameful.  I washed myself in my grief and despair and became completely ill over it by the time they returned.  My stomach turned.  My head ached.  I was a complete mess and failure.  Any way I hope you can forgive me and we might move on.  This feels like a classic example of someone crying out for help.  I wouldn't beat around the bush- it is.  I will soon be seeking some form of counsel in the near future.  But until then prayers will be my rock. 

Ironically the challenge I had been working on this week was "surprise someone you love with a gift".  Since I was working on the challenge earlier in the week I wasn't quite as upset as I am now.  But I was still torn as to what kind of gift and to whom should I give it.  It nearly made me wish I had a close friend.  I have wished that all my life but it appears that God is no genie and I fail in the art of social interaction.  To be perfectly honest I wanted to buy myself a gift, but I ended up buying something for the both of us.  I am too irritated at the moment to discuss said purchase plus it will be more fun to share when it actually arrives and I can take pictures. 

I love my husband.  He is smart, handsome, and great at his job.  So I don't know why I keep messing it up.

Yours Truly,

L.L. 

Sister Visit but No Challenges Completed

Dear Reader,

I don't have much to tell you this week.  My sister came to visit with her son Donovan.  We don't see each other very often.  She lives in Idaho.  She came to see Tim Hawkins comedy show in Salem.  I don't know why she would drive so far for that but it was certainly fun to visit and a change of pace.  It was nice and convenient that I could send a Mother's Day present home with her.  My mom and dad have been out of the country for a long time now and I am excited to tell them that I will be able to visit them soon.

Also I am behind a couple books in my Popsugar Reading Challenge so I thought I would try to catch up with that before trying #19 Surprise someone you love with a gift and #20 Try Nail Art (I have my wraps ready though!!).

It is always hard to predict what I will get around to but this week doesn't look too busy or surprising.  I am getting bored of grocery shopping and cooking, I am not sure what to do about that just thought I would mention it since this plus cleaning the house is all I feel I am good for most of the time. 

Don't forget to tell your mother you love her!

Yours Truly,
L.L.

Farmer's Market and Cross Stitching Holmes

Dear Reader,

Thank God for beautiful spring days.  It usually rains quite about around here so any sun in spring is appreciated.  As I had so excitedly proclaimed last week we, our whole family, mind you, went to our local(ish) Saturday Market.  We also walked the new park bridge, rode the carousel, and went to the BIG library.  I am sure a couple of these are challenges for the future, but I will just focus on the market part which was challenge #16.  Next time I will take an appropriate recipe for seasonal fruits and veggies but I think I was just so excited to get out of the house with my family that I didn't think too much about it.  We did sit in the food court area and get some fresh squeezed lemonade.  Ariana tried this potato on a stick with a hot dog thing that tasted great, but was probably not good for you.  The other two had corn dogs.  The adults were a bit more adventures and tried some Peruvian tamales- yum!  I found a both called Vanilla Bean which sold the most scrumptious creme brulee chocolate muffins.  Neil gave the girls a couple dollars to buy some fancy rocks- they love collecting rocks. 

So many choices!

"I am a little shy.  But I like my rice krispy treat."

Right around the time we were ready to leave the market we ran into my husband's ex-girlfriend.....so that wasn't awkward (insert a little sarcasm).  But seriously she is a nice girl and it would 10x more awkward and awful if one of MY exes were to show up some where (thank goodness the chances of that are fairly low).  I also ran into my friend Julie!  I saw her daughter first and thought to myself- she looks like a little girl I have seen many pictures of on Facebook- and sure enough it WAS her.  Any way, it was great day and it will be so fun to go again some time this summer. 

I also wanted to share my little cross stitching project.  I have been refraining from sharing it because it was suppose to be a Christmas present last year for Ali and Marcel but I never ended up finishing it in time.  I was also afraid one of them would see my posts (but I am fairly confident I have few to no readers- that is okay, this blog is mostly for future me any way *GRINS A MISCHIEVOUS GRIN JUST THINKING ABOUT IT*)-

Since Ali is a big Sherlock fan and she and her husband JUST bought a new house this will be even more appropriate this Christmas!  I am REALLY close to finishing.  I am only really worried about the framing part. 

Do you have a Farmer's Market in your area?  Are you working on any fun crafts?  Next time I write I will hopefully be telling you about a gift for the someone I love or doing nail art/wraps challenge.  Have a wonderful week!

Yours Truly,
L.L.